The Players Song

Players Song

what you lookin’ at?
what you laughin’ at?
what you makin’ fun of?

the end has come
lights gone down
crowds are gone
strides across
this sawdust clown

baggy pants
dirty shirt
worn out shoes
treading through
another broken town

hotel room
lonely bulb
peeling paint
dingy and dank
inhabited mold drown

what you lookin’ at?
what you laughin’ at?
what you makin’ fun of?

the naked man
in the bathtub
smokes a cigar
wearing the painted
face of a clown

milky surface
soapy water
shimmers like diamonds
one deep breath
he’s sliding down
what you lookin’ at?
what you laughin’ at?
what you makin’ fun of?

warm wet meditation
wraps up the man
mind quiet, at peace
distant thunder smoking
cigar lifeline

rising up
paint-stained flesh
reveals the man
washed renewed naked
suffering reality frown

what you lookin’ at?
what you laughin’ at?
what you makin’ fun of?

I don’t remember when I wrote this – possibly 2013-2014. But I only recorded it recently.

I was born….

I WAS BORN

I was born in 1960. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  I will turn 60 in 2020.
I turned 20 in 1980. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  I will turn 80 in 2040.
I turned 40 in the year 2000. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

All of my present has been
neurotically ricocheting
back and forth between
my past and my future.

I turned 40 in the year 2000.
When I turn 00
I will return to
what I was
before I was born

At peace.
At home.
In total oneness with
existence and nonexistence.

… on… becoming….

58 years ago at this time I was in the second trimester before my birth.

In only a few months I will come into being for the 58th time.

So much has happened since I was first conceived.

I continue to change and evolve –

Into a being who is genetically predestined by choice.

I am the paradox.

I am the quandary.

I am the essence of joy and sadness –

Working out my own salvation with care and understanding.

My own manifest destiny.

 

… on… being… and… becoming….

Happy New Year everyone!

This is the time of year where  people make resolution after pointless resolution.   They are ALL a waste of time.   I even overheard someone the other day say, “well I better make my New Years resolution – even though I know I will fail after 2 weeks.”   This kind of futility will kill us – if not our body it will kill our soul.   We need to stop talking like this.   We need to stop committing to things we know we will fail at or have no true intention of completing.  In addition to this we need to STOP looking to others for the changes we want to see.

messages from the future #77 wm sm

It’s time to stop trying and start being!

BE the peace you want to see in the world.

BE the joy you wish others to have.

BE the happiness you seek.

BE the faith you want to see others convert to.

BE the acceptance you would want in others.

BE the tolerance you wish to see in others.

BE the kindness where you find it impossible.

BE the love that others cannot or will not give you.

BE.

Just BE.

When you find your being… you will find your becoming… a light to the world….

messages from the future #57 evn smlr

You need to understand “being” won’t be easy and you may suffer for it because others want you to be what they want not what you are.   But it’s time to terraform this desert that has become humanity.  You are all Desert Roses – bloom free for the world to see. It’s a new year with 365 brand new days.

Your music moment today is provide by Sting – “Brand New Day” the title track from the album BRAND NEW DAY.  May it give you the energy you need to start to bloom in this new year.  🙂

… on… learning to lose….

I don’t know if I’m the only one to notice this….  Have you ever noticed that it’s no longer how we play the game that matters; it’s all about winning and losing?  It’s no longer about the journey but about the end?  From the highest echelons of political office down the the humblest individual people all want to be winners – they want to think of themselves and winners and have others think of them as winners.  Winning has become everything.   And losing has become an issue of placing blame, making excuses, and/or justifying the loss.   Reacting angrily with cries of “NOT FAIR” when one loses and complaining about the loss does not reflect well on those who lose.  I think this is a major warning sign for the future of humanity.    I started thinking about this recently after a competition we had in our workplace.  The team I was most closely affiliated with lost.   They had such a difficult time with losing that they complained about it all day and following day.   I had found it so ridiculous that they should react so badly.  But, like I said, it got me thinking.

Story Of Our Lives #89

I think there may be several reasons for this lack of sportsmanship/gamesmanship behavior.    The first is analysis or maybe more precisely over-analysis.   Everyones got an opinion and they tear apart and nit-pick to the finest detail their own performance as well the performance of others.   It is a “gaze” that lasts too long and is too rigidly detailed to ultimately be of any beneficial use; except, to justify and tear down.   Now you may say, “what’s wrong with analyzing a situation to become better in the future?”  Fair question.  What IS wrong (I would argue) is that it does not necessarily make one better unless it makes them a better complainer, whiner when they lose in the future.

Another reason – and we will only see this get worse – starting with our children we teach them that everyone is a winner in events that just by participating you are a winner and so every single participant is given a ribbon or a trophy whatever the prize may be.  This is completely unrealistic and we are setting up our children with unrealistic expectation when they grow up and enter the adult world.   This is probably one of the greatest tragedies be we are, setting up our children for a lifetime of hurt, dissatisfaction, complaint, lack of acceptance and understanding of one’s position and ultimately this can lead to violence.   And who’s fault is it?  The children’s?  Absolutely not – it’s the fault of the adults to taught them.

I also think that a very likely reason is the switch of emphasis from individual performance to team performance which has only increased with the rise of professional sports.   Everyone has “teams” now – even businesses, social organizations, political parties – it seems like absolutely everything is subdivided by the concept of team.   And this  has completely changed the value of individual performance.   Individuals are not fully accepted, “you must be part of a team”, “you must support your team” I personally think this is damaging and ultimately de-values the individual and encourages group-think and sycophantic behavior.   Failure to value individual uniqueness and seeing how an individual fits in the bigger picture will lead to the downfall and failure of many groups.

Technology.  Okay I can see some of you rolling your eyes thinking, “he’s gonna start bashing technology”.   Actually have no intent of doing that.   Technology is a wonderful tool that we can use to learn, grow and expand our knowledge, understanding and acceptance of not only ourselves, but also of others.  Now, like many things humans have created, technology is a double-edged sword.   And information technology has the sharpest edge on that sword.   Media and internet make EVERYTHING more immediate (well, more-or-less until the recent battles over net neutrality).    As a species that has created these tools we are in our infancy in understanding both the benefits and pitfalls of such tools.  And there are pitfalls.   I would argue that one pitfall is that with such immediacy of all manner of information we have become less discerning in our consumption and digestion of information.   Because there is alway “this…”, then “this… again”, “this…. recycled”, “This…. regurgitated”, “this… analyzed yet again”  We are in a psychotic state of always reacting to the next thing and not stopping to digest what was first consumed.   One reason I think we do this is that with this omnipresence of new and incessantly recycled information creates the illusion that it is ALL important.   And quite frankly, it is NOT that important.  In fact I suspect probably 90 percent of all information in the media and on the internet is pointless and without value – much like our excess consumption of sugar in our diet.  We don’t need al the sugar that we eat but it sure tastes good and therefore we train our bodies to think that it is important.   The media and internet is the same way.    It is an addiction.   In fact manufacturers are continually looking for new technologies to “connect” us to the so-called information super-highway. But I suspect that at some point what will happen is that just like too much sugar causes our bodies to shut down – too much information will result in a intellectual shut-down.   All of this information with it’s immediacy and fraudulent self-importance further exacerbates the differences between winning and losing.

I also think we need to look at religion and how it has become an unwitting disciple to the secular concepts of winning and losing.    Many religions view their followers as “the chosen one” with some notion of reward for being part of that group and yes I have seen many that reward people for following while condemning those who have a different way to go.   I once volunteered at a homeless shelter for nearly 4 years.  Over the course of that time I saw clients rewarded and given favoritism and opportunities just because they learned to talk the talk – but look out because one slip and they were gone.  I used to laugh at the news letter for the homeless shelter which was used for soliciting funding and support – because their feature story was for someone that was actually kicked out of the shelter because of a mistake they made.   This would happen on a regular basis.  There was talk of unconditional grace and forgiveness at the shelter but I hardly ever saw it.   Yet it goes on because it has become a community institution.  It’s existence has become more important than its mission which is sadly what can be said of most religions and religious organizations.  These institutions reward the “winners” and disavow the “losers”.

Celebrity is the final thing that I think causes us to understand the value of losing.  In our media and “image” driven culture Celebrities are adored and worshiped.   Throughout the history of humanity Celebrity has existed.  But with the rise of media celebrity became more entertainment driven.  And not only the building up of celebrity but also the tearing down of celebrity.  This is a cultural disease that MUST be treated.  How does celebrity contribute to the malaise of winning and losing?   Celebrities are revered, even worshiped.  They are people that others look up to.  And because of that, even though they try to deny it – they are de-facto role models for society at large.  So many people see celebrities as the only ones who’s voices matter.  Many people strive toward celebrity because celebrities are “winners” –  But this is part of the great lie.  And media technology and the internet displays every single moment of a celebrities life – and for those who follow any given celebrity they “see” what is and isn’t acceptable they judge their own lives by what that celebrity says and does.   And when a celebrity falls out of favor people simply move on the the next celebrity – because there’s always one just waiting to take your attention and adoration.  It’s all part of “winning.”

Is there any good news?  Can we bring the “game of life” back into balance where winning and losing is less of a criticism and more of an evaluation of where things stand?  Yes.  I’m happy to say there is good news but it will require self-discipline our each of our parts to self-regulate our consumption of media and information.  It will require that we look outside of our own beliefs and ideas, seeking to understand and accept differing viewpoints.  It will require we be patient with ourselves but mostly with others; because in our current self-centered cultural milieu it will be difficult to see others progressing as fast as ourselves – so we must be patient with them.  We must learn to lose and as we learn to do that and accept loss then we will be able to help others in the process.

We need to understand and accept the following facts; yes, we need to do our best but there will always be someone better.  Someone will always interpret the rules differently than you.  The rules are always changing.  The winning moment if over so quickly – it’s only a temporary high.  There are ALWAYS more losers than winners.   You will lose more than you will win.  Acceptance is not defeat.  Learning to lose is a great gift.  Losing is something that should be taught with grace, understanding and compassion.  It’s okay to lose – that’s life.   To be a good loser – that’s grace.

I’ve recently been watching old Olympic films.  One thing that struck me is the Oath that is taken.  To be more precise. the Oath when it was first taken in the 1920 Olympics.  “Chivalry”, “Honour” and “the glory of sport”.    These apply to everyone.  These qualities are the great equalizer between winning and losing.  It is about individual values and the value of the individual (whether they play on a team or not).

We swear. We will take part in the Olympic Games in a spirit of chivalry, for the honour of our country and for the glory of sport.

Final consideration: when you win – you’ve got no place to go. When you lose you always have someplace you can go.

Well, this has been one of my wordier posts so if you’ve made it this far – I am grateful and eager to hear your opinions and views on these ideas.

… on… the macro verse….

I’ve long been fascinated with macro photography.  It’s so hard to do it right.  And I’m usually too lazy to carry a tripod around so I’ve never really bothered.   But lately, as my previous post shows.  I’ve started getting into the so-called groove of close-up and macro imaging.    I still don’t use a tripod – all handheld – so the number of useable images are limited.

This morning was a beautiful frosty December morning and I decided to go to a local park close to downtown and only about 5 minutes from my apartment.   Here are two of the images I was able to use from this morning along with two new haiku.  Hope you enjoy them.

Les Bébés Congelés

Frosty mornings
Inhale a crispy frozen breath
I gasp, in love

Whiplash wind storm
When I am lost you bend me back
See what’s behind

Whiplash Bend

The music moment is provided by the Tindersticks.    Their song FROZEN from their recent album – The Something Rain.

…pulling it together…

Before you can pull yourself together,
you must first fall apart.

Coastal #2

Coastal #2

Buddha Dissolve

Buddha Dissolve

On Hitting The Wall

On Hitting The Wall

It is better to fall apart than to be broken apart.

…….what I am, what I once was……..

Youth chases after and follows its bliss
The aged remain and rest in their bliss
and neither can tell you where it may be found

Youth is controlled by passion
The aged controls their passion

Youth rushes foolishly head-long to learn
what the aged already know, and have taken years to learn

The error of youth judges the aged
The error of the aged criticizes the youth
And neither respects the other

The aged were once youthful
As the youthful will one day be aged
Neither should be rushed.

IT’S NOT TOO LATE

Values

WHAT VALUES

Who co-opted our values
Who changed the primary meaning of the word
Who dared to stare at the face of God
and say, “Who are you?”
and, “How much?”

When did values change to only mean
deal
sale
cheap
bargain

When did the noun co-opt the verb

Will we ever be able to recover
prize
cherish
appreciate
those things
which cannot be defined
by material value

Maybe some day
it will be an innocent child
who recovers the truth
and once again
focuses and directs
away from materialism
the values of humanity
breathing new life
into old meanings

Life Is What You Make It

This blog includes a lot of light and dark spots. Life is full of light and dark. While yesterdays post may have seemed darker. Today’s post is much lighter and inspirational. Enjoy.

After viewing the video. I couldn’t help but think that this example in the video is what the true mission of Jesus Christ was all about. I believe this because of What he said (when he was quoting the Old Testament prophet Isaiah,

The spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to release the oppressed,
to proclaim the year of the lords favor.
~ Isaiah 61:1,2 & Luke 4:18,19

This video provides an example that fulfills all those things mentioned. Think about it.
It’s not about religion. It’s about life changes outside religion.